Person vs. Self
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"Comon' Steph! It will be so much fun!" My newest friend Leanna called to me as she headed towards the couch where I was sitting on.
Leanna, Sydney and I were home alone at my place. My parents were out for the weekend, went to Vegas to celebrate their 17th anniversary. Sydney and Leanna were my new and pretty much only friends that I had since moving to this town. My family had just moved here in July, and I surprised myself when I realized that I didn't mind the move much. Maybe I'm just not caring anymore. My mom is a writer and by dad works with the military, and because of my dads job, we move often. Making new friends has been hard for me, and I think I am getting to the point where I had given up on making new friendships. But then Leanna and Sydney found me, in the hallways one day, and even since then we have been friends.
Sure, they might not be my mothers first choice of friends, but I honestly couldn't care less. They liked to party often and of course drinking comes along with that. Who knows what other hobbies they cared for. I don't really mind because they were nice to me and they were also the closest things that I had to a friend in a long time.
"I'm not sure," I replied after a drastically long pause. I had been to a party with them before and it consisted of me drunk for the first time. Long story short, my mom was beyond pissed and I don't want to get in that situation again.
"I'm not feeling up to it today. I have a headache," I lied.
"Oh please Steph! Stop being pathetic and making stupid excuses," Leanna said as she slapped my thigh which was not covered by my denim short-shorts.
"No but legit guys, my head has been hurting for a while now."
I tried thinking of a better excuse quick, but nothing came. I didn't want to loose my new friends but I didn't want to get my parents, esepically my mother, that upset again.
"Steph, it's okay, your parents wont be home until Sunday! They wont even know that you left! It's all good, you're with us!"
'You're with us', that's the problem I think. I don't want them to get drunk and then forget about me.
"Yeah," Sydney adds, "Your parents wont have a clue! We'll have so much fun and you'll totally miss out! You might even meet some new people there. Isn't that what your mom wants?"
I thought about that for a moment. Leanna and Sydney were right, my parents wouldn't know at all! A jolt of excitement ran though me, but it was also mixed with guilt. I knew that I would be disobeying by parents wishes and that I shouldn't do that because they only want the best for me. But deep down I knew that I wanted to go. I would probably make new friends too, that's what my mother wanted anyways. And when she asks where I met them I'll just say school. Perfect! Nothing to worry about.
"You have to come!"
"Ok fine, I think my head feels better now anyways," I say and stand up with a smile on my face.
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"Comon' Steph! It will be so much fun!" My newest friend Leanna called to me as she headed towards the couch where I was sitting on.
Leanna, Sydney and I were home alone at my place. My parents were out for the weekend, went to Vegas to celebrate their 17th anniversary. Sydney and Leanna were my new and pretty much only friends that I had since moving to this town. My family had just moved here in July, and I surprised myself when I realized that I didn't mind the move much. Maybe I'm just not caring anymore. My mom is a writer and by dad works with the military, and because of my dads job, we move often. Making new friends has been hard for me, and I think I am getting to the point where I had given up on making new friendships. But then Leanna and Sydney found me, in the hallways one day, and even since then we have been friends.
Sure, they might not be my mothers first choice of friends, but I honestly couldn't care less. They liked to party often and of course drinking comes along with that. Who knows what other hobbies they cared for. I don't really mind because they were nice to me and they were also the closest things that I had to a friend in a long time.
"I'm not sure," I replied after a drastically long pause. I had been to a party with them before and it consisted of me drunk for the first time. Long story short, my mom was beyond pissed and I don't want to get in that situation again.
"I'm not feeling up to it today. I have a headache," I lied.
"Oh please Steph! Stop being pathetic and making stupid excuses," Leanna said as she slapped my thigh which was not covered by my denim short-shorts.
"No but legit guys, my head has been hurting for a while now."
I tried thinking of a better excuse quick, but nothing came. I didn't want to loose my new friends but I didn't want to get my parents, esepically my mother, that upset again.
"Steph, it's okay, your parents wont be home until Sunday! They wont even know that you left! It's all good, you're with us!"
'You're with us', that's the problem I think. I don't want them to get drunk and then forget about me.
"Yeah," Sydney adds, "Your parents wont have a clue! We'll have so much fun and you'll totally miss out! You might even meet some new people there. Isn't that what your mom wants?"
I thought about that for a moment. Leanna and Sydney were right, my parents wouldn't know at all! A jolt of excitement ran though me, but it was also mixed with guilt. I knew that I would be disobeying by parents wishes and that I shouldn't do that because they only want the best for me. But deep down I knew that I wanted to go. I would probably make new friends too, that's what my mother wanted anyways. And when she asks where I met them I'll just say school. Perfect! Nothing to worry about.
"You have to come!"
"Ok fine, I think my head feels better now anyways," I say and stand up with a smile on my face.